I suppose that’s
appropriate.
It’s been a good long break and I don’t
know if I have changed after all this while. Well, maybe you can judge for
yourselves. I guess I have. I guess I have learnt to accept many things, so
that I can now proceed towards a new direction and play with a new flurry of
doubts. Aah doubts, my old friend. Good thing about doubts are that once they
go, they go forever.
There is some stability in my mind. There’s
more certainty. I know, even vaguely if so, what I want out of life. I think
calming the hormones early by giving into the temptations is a necessity ;) It
works in much more complex ways than you can think!
It has been hectic, and now I want to relax
and unwind, mostly. I am even thinking of writing a book. And doing some
painting.
There were lots of blog articles on the
rack that I had never completed. I’ll try to wrap them up, wherever possible.
Sadly, the limitations of human memory will let a few articles remain
incomplete forever. Some unsaid words will be lost, leaving no ghosts behind.
So here begins a train of those few
articles that I could give some shape to. Frankly, it is not easy trying to see
things from the same eyes that saw a year ago. I look back at myself... so much
energy, so much enthusiasm, so much to express, so much spark – all mostly
scattered and wasted without any direction. I don’t know why I did not
understand, actually I never knew that people can be so serious- but they are!
If I would have a time turner like Hermione, I would go back to my old self and
tell her, tenderly, lovingly...well, I still don’t think I would understand.
Hmm, maybe the experiences were just plain necessary.
